Friday, May 8, 2015

Crushing the Butterfly

I think I first heard this phrase from Ido Portal (his webpage is posted below). It has been a phrase and lesson that life has constantly and continuously been making present to me through various circumstances. Clearly, this is a challenging pill for me to swallow.

Loving and living my early twenties is a blessing and curse.
While I feel somewhat in my "prime",  having natural youth and vitality at my fingertips for just a little while longer, each year that passes I come to realize how short this will last and just how important the practice is over time, whatever the practice may be. With this natural youth and vitality due purely to age, I find myself filled up with a constant buzz of ambition.

Ambition is great, as it is an ingredient for persistence and perseverance.
However, too much ambition is just as bad as none.
This is where I find myself lately.
Too much ambition, no direction. 
I want to do everything and be everywhere all at once.
I want to do "great things".

The thing is…if you just keep doing…little by little, great things happen.

So, do the do.

When there is too much ambition and no direction, it can feel like I'm so "far behind". The thought of feeling behind can ruin everything if I let it, because it is a major lie one can believe. We as humans can only do so much…and the rest is left to synchronicity. So, just do what you can do, now.

This overload of ambition is what can crush the butterfly. It's like a baby, so eager to walk but hasn't yet learned to stand. 

The strength in ambition's drive can quickly turn into greed and devaluation of one's own experience. It fuels the wanting to be somewhere other than where you are at.

We are all right where we need to be, when we need to be…simply because we all ARE.

Dance and the butterfly will dance with you. Try to chase and catch it, and you will crush and kill the very thing you wanted.
Just do the doing, step by step, & let go of the rest. 



Sunday, May 3, 2015

Fullfiling-Full Moon


Happy Full Moon! 
Now is a time of manifesting,
Self testing. 
We finished the move,
Settled into familiar space 
Feels as though 
With a new face
& with new eyes too. 
A full moon to remind me
There's nothing I can't do. 
I move &
you move too. 

Letting Go

Easier said than done, I worked so hard on this piece and it holds a lot of emotional relevance for me. But, it's time for new beginnings. Luckily we feel it, we know it, and that's all we need. 

Saturday, May 2, 2015

Moving Back Home


One of my favorite places in Blono is pictured above, the Coffee Hound. It is one place I will always feel at home. This is just one of the many reasons I'm so excited to return to Blono! 

It has been quite interesting to watch my perspective of my hometown shift and change over the last 2 years.  

I was always eager to be somewhere else. I generally felt like Blono had little to offer, was boring, and used to become adgitated by the thought of running into people everytime I'd leave the house. 

While living in Washington IL, working part time, and going through an intensive certification program...my time felt pretty limited. All of my connections to community were scattered amongst the surrounding towns of Peoria, most of which take a 20-30 minute drive to reach. Although I greatly enjoyed the quiet sleepy town of Washington, its amazing park reserves, and the feelings of independence based on my circumstance, I'm so excited to return home. 

WAY More than I would have imagined. 

Although I didn't go far, life has really showed me that every place, person, and circumstance has something to offer.  However, if you refuse to look, you will not see. 

Get ready Blono, looking to do some big things with you in this next year. 

Reasons why Blono is bad ass: 

-Coffee Hound
-Farmers Market Saturdays and Tuesdays 
-Easy Bike Commuting 
-Gardening Community 
- ISU students
-Main Street Yoga
-Diverse communities 
-Familiar faces everywhere 
-Constitution Trail

See you very soon <3


B & B

The breakfast I ate before watching a 5 hour brain surgery!  

Sun shine :)

Friday, April 24, 2015

Borrowed Light

Borrowed --
A tiny speck of light.
Sorrowed --
Dimmed daily by the night.

Light --
Bottled into life.
Drunk --
Trippin on each strife.

Love --
Is life and light, is one
Webs --
Into which all the dust is spun

Borrowed --
Dust & light from stars.
Borrowed --
Souls that are not ours
Thanks for lending
The time and I
Being -- Spending.

Friday, March 13, 2015

Springtime Shenanigans

#springtimeshenanigans 

Coming soon! 

Share in the comments what you've been doing in this amazing weather. I would love to hear :)